Michael is one of my yoga instructors. When I see his car in the parking lot, I often consider not walking into the studio. The truth is he challenges me more than the other instructors. He always knows when my mind has drifted off or I am not giving it my all. It reminds me of how my Dad would bust me in mundane lies as a teenager. After a recent class, he commented that I was "sandbagging." I had to go home and search the term on google. Here is one of the definitions I came up with "To deliberately perform at a lower level than you are capable of." This is a metaphor for the past four years of my life. I have been sandbagging through life. It is part of why I haven't pursued many things. I have been considering entrepreneur ventures, but I am more aware of my road block. The darn sandbag attached to my ass.
I truly believe and preach that if you are not happy with your current situation, you and only you have the power to change it. I believe this with all that I am, yet fine myself stationary. What will it take for me to go pursue these things? I know that I cannot depend on a company for income. For security, I must create ownership over a skill etc, that I can be lucrative at even without an 8-5 gig.
Only I have the power to change this. Operation ditch the sandbag begins (or continues).