Anyone watch Glee last night? The encounter with Quinn (high school student) and Shelby (at teacher played by Idina Menzel, who I adore) hit me like a woman still dealing with being in her thirties. Here is a taste of their conversation from last night's episode.
SHELBY: It goes away you know? Not the pretty. You will always be pretty, but the young. It happens really slow and you don't even notice it then one day everything just....feels different.
QUINN: I can't wait to feel different.
SHELBY: Don't wish away your life. You're just where you are suppose to be.
The words rang so true to me. I remember the heartache so vividly of being twenty-three and feeling my youth being sucked out of my veins. I don't think it all went away then though. I think at the time I thought it had, but only now looking back and knowing how I feel now do I realize I still had it. When you are in the middle of your youth, you have this yearning to be an adult and for time to pass by as quickly as possible. It happens at a different time for each of us. To me, my years of growing up were the hardest thus far. Then something happens one day and in a snap you want time to slow down. The years go by in the blink of an eye and you think you are still young but the mirror tells a different story. Life has gotten easier with time in my eyes, but for some reason there is a desire to have the youth back. Maybe it is because we always want what we can't have. I spend many of my hours dreaming about what adventure life might bring next when really I need to try harder to enjoy right where I am now in life. Who knows, when I am forty I might be looking back on these days as some of the best- so why not enjoy every minute of it.