Monday, November 28, 2011
Birthday countdown blues
This happens to me every year. As my birthday approaches I start freaking out. I get a tight feeling in my chest and frequent episodes of heavy breathing. I will self-diagnose as some form of an anxiety attack. Another year has passed and what do I have to show for it? I am in the same job, in the same city, making little impact on the world. Time is going by too fast and I have no control over it. I am at the 2 week mark to reaching another birthday. The strange part is the past few years of life I would categorize as the best. Life has only gotten better with age. I am more confidant, calm, peaceful and happy... so why the hell am I freaking out?!